As I've grown older, my traditions have changed, but I still don't know that I've ever had a fantastic New Year's Eve. There's too much pressure on the night. It is the beginning of another year and I always want it to start perfectly, but it always falls short of my expectations (I often have this problem, just ask Dustin). Last year, was terrible. Dustin and I got into a huge fight at about 11:55 P.M. that carried into 2009. It was not ideal, though the year that followed didn't seem ruined by the horrid beginning. We survived, because as Barry sings, "it's just another night, that's all it is."
New Year's Eve, by its very nature, has a bit of sadness that comes with it. It is the reminder that we are all getting older and that time never stops. It also points out that the year is over and there's no more time to accomplish anything that you might have wanted to accomplish. We are told by mass media to set goals and resolutions for ourselves, but are then quickly told that of course we won't actually do any of these things. Perhaps it all of this that looms over the day that ruins it for me.
My plan this year is to relax and go with the flow. I'm thinking of it as just another night out. No pressure. No drama. Dustin and I are going to Parliament House to ring in 2010. We will drink, dance, see drag shows, and hopefully share a kiss at midnight. But no matter what happens, 2010 will be upon us. A new decade that will bring with it many challenges, sadnesses, fears, changes, good times, and my 30th birthday. In the morning will everything be suddenly different? No, of course not, but maybe with time we will grow a little wiser.